It’s possible that at least a piece of this blog project will be a coming-out project.
I feel like there’s a hunger to share about my gender experience.
I have a lot of resistance to doing that. I’ve fallen into a habit of saying that I don’t have any secrets about it, but this is no longer true. It was true, when I started saying it. But the things I haven’t talked about, as I’ve gone through this journey, have built up over time. I’ve grown silent. I’ve let the silence speak for me. And the silence sometimes makes up shit that isn’t true.
It’s hard, because it’s a story that doesn’t have a beginning. I’m sure it doesn’t really have an end, either.
Part of me just really wants to know: What do you want to know about my gender experience?
And part of me is tired of having other people’s questions define my journey, my space, my identity.
How do we make ourselves our own?